--Last edited by MeCh on 2007-03-18 07:55:21 --

How appropriate.Even your bruise patches rhyme.Kick a mirror just because you don't like the reflection reflecting back,call the hotline number posted on the back of the eighteen wheeler in front of you just because your having a good day.Flick off the chick at Whataburger for handing you a breakfast taquito with a smie that is as fake as Paris Hilton's nose.Sneak into your next door neighbor's window with a joint in trade for a goodnight kiss.And know what it is to be dumped for getting too comfortable.with me. Without a word of justification for timing.
I told you once i like my pussy to be full almost as much as my ears.Where did your words go? And or conversations for that matter? And your tellmesomethings all turned into I love you because you had nothing better to rely on. You are'nt what i thought you would be. And consistancy is'nt the normality i wish to run to when you are nothing but a feign for a girl that can take care of you like your mommy would. *laugh* How appropriate to try and push me into that catagory. And how appropriate that i would rebel against being the clean little thing that you fuck that cooks you dinner and washes your dishes and tells you what a beautiful man you are going to be once your circumsicions drop.Fuck that, Baby.Fuck that.Remember who you wanted to be and stop putting your somedays into the back of your closet in a box marked with ?em pleh.I cannot be the exponent for the zero. Three cheers for eve.I am stronger than the idea of being convinced into being with the man that you want to be. The someday that's at the back of your closet.And the car trips you won't make to come and see what the hell is going on with the haunts under my bed.You have a lifetime to love someone that wants to notice your very noticeable language of love.
 Hate me.

I AM REAL. AND I AM NOT MISLEADING. LIKE YOU.

there is a fine line between love and hate. and I now do hate you with as much love as i ever loved you with. dosn't mean i don't still love you. but. fuck you. You are wrong for what you've done to me. and i never did anything wrong to you. and you are misunderstood about my needing you to be mommy... you did all that on your own. i don't need you. i was doing just fine before you came into my life. You are amazing and WE WERE EVEN MORE AMAZING TOGETHER. but you've thrown it all away. uhg. I'm not gonna spent to much time shaking now. thats all.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK IT.  

PS. if you ever wanted me to go out there all you had to do was call. All you ever had to do was communicate with me. Tell me whats going on under your bed. tell me you wanted me out there to see you. i would have been there in a heart beat.

I LOVE YOU.

I HATE YOU.

Have a nice life.

oh yes and at last THANK YOU for the confusing explanation there. so now i know you left me because I couldn't keep your ears full of "lets talk about the weather" converstation. And you left me because You discoverd i wasn't what you expected me to be. heh... whatever that means. lets see... what other reasons.... you left me because you THOUGHT i rely'd on you or somthing like that.... and ... you left me because.... I got too comfortable with you?




at least i know why now.... sorta....

makes things a little easier on me...... i geuss.....

bah. I'll never find another like you.

but...

i will find another.

boo to you for treating me this way. boo to you for dissappearing on me even after i made it clear to you how much i hate that. boo to you for throwing such a beautiful thing away.



boo.

some pepper at last. And the beginnings for resiliance somewhere in there too. It's good to see that out of you finally. I knew you had a backbone somewhere in there. Yah,yah. I suck.I'll send an appeal to my better nature to work on all of the above for you.*laugh*
and don't you know that i can write wthout caps and scream with a vengence harder then you could ever tame.The wild is eager.And you were a well convinced rebound.
Cheers to the have a nice life part.