I used to, but now I can tell the Holidays are just gonna make my family turn against each other and make them sad.  My Magna(my grandfathers widow, he died last Christmas) has planned a Thanksgiving dinner, like we always have, and I missed last years, but not for a bad reason, so I have every intention in going.  Only, my grandfather's kids don't plan on going, and when I talked to her I could tell it broke her heart.  My dad had the nerve to not even tell her.  

And then my dad says at Christmas he won't even be in town, that he'll go stay w/ his mom, and he isn't even gonna step foot in my grandparent's house.  I know people have their ways of coping with losing a loved one, but it's so sad when in the midst of their coping they hurt someone who is still living and probably hurts more at this time.  

My Magna doesn't sleep in her bed, and that's IF she sleeps.  She sleeps in her recliner in the living room.  She still goes to the church that my grandfather preached at while hardly any of the family still goes (myself included).  I just think it's sad that my family can be so selfish and not even think how this effects anybody but themselves.  

Anyway I just had to vent.  Thanx.

That makes me sad. I'm not spending thanksgiving this year at my moms house. i'm going with a close friends family. I don't know. I just can't belive much my mom has changed. Or maybe I changed. I don't want to be so easily forgiving. And she took back a man who not only broke her heart he turned and walk away from his entire family AND all his fucking bills. EVERYTHING. and it's like... as if... that was the worst problem... thats what sent her two sons away... the fucking bills. money. the root of all evil. boo. gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. that ass hole. i'm suppose to forgive his because he came back.... like... way later... boo. i hope she is happy. i want' my mom to be happy. and i want my littlest bro to be happy two and thats his real father so.... i'm glad he came back. i just don't want to see him... because i don't want to feel all the negetive energy i get when i think about him... i don't want to look at him and hate him...  

--Last edited by MeCh on 2006-11-19 13:21:42 --

And to top the Holiday cheer off.......  My mom and I got into it last night!  Everything is such a mess..........

sigh... yeh.... boo to these holidays.... booo... to them.....

I moved out of my mom's house last night...........

now i don't live w/ either one of my parents..........