i've been walking around the apartment in some sort of circles. I kinda feel like the orange that fell out of the cart of oranges for sale and rolled out into the street just narrowly avoiding getting smashed all over the road by traffic. As each car zooms by the force makes me roll further away from the cart of oranges. um... i dunno... maybe i don't feel like an orange... maybe i was just thinking about that orange and putting myself in it's shoes. (if oranges had shoes) Anyway. today has been stressfull. Kinda one thing after another and it all has not much to do with me so i guess these things should not be stressing me out so much. I'm wondering fully whats going through my girlfriends head. She's had not the best luck lately and i guess if anyone should be stressed it's her. Wow. My mood just totally changed. I feel very diffrent now after that thought. I still really want to hold my girlfriend right now but not for my comfort... for hers. I miss her but it isn't about me anymore... not at this moment... She is dealing with alot and still listening to me bitch when i have to. I have a wonderful girlfriend and I really hope she sees how much i apprieciate everything little things she dose with me in her thoughts. Millicent i'm sorry for being needy some times it's just that the attention i get from you makes me feel so alive inside that i feel like i'm dying when you're not around. I gotta go now. My friend is here. Maybe i'll add more to this later... maybe.


Toast is good with juice and cut up bannanas around the glass.