OK... so what if i had to call my mom and ask her to take me to the hospital... i couldn't drive myself anyway... kody needed the car to go to work. And we had nice conversations about her divorcing the ass hole and about how he threatend suicide and was playing frogger on the highway piss drunk. lol. what a fucking loser. acting like a dumb teenage emo bitch. I just feel sorry for my lil bro and sis. thats like... their dad. must be fucked up from their point of veiw. from mine... it's funny... if i was headed down that highway i'd try to hit him. Gah... wish he could grow up and be a father and take care of his fucking family. bleh. I tell you this... if I am ever a Dad I don't care who the mom is. My kids will come first. ... my "father" signed his rights to me away when i was like... 2. The next guy stepped in and Mr. Robert Tiensvold became my dad. I took his last name and everything. He was great dad when it came to finacial support... wasn't home much, in fact growing up I hardly saw him, but i don't hold anything against him for working hard. My mom was always home and there for me... and still is. I guess you could say i'm a bit of a momma's boy huh? I don't care... i'm happy with that. I learned alot from my mom. I wouldn't be the charming gentleman I am today if it wernt for her. Anyway... things didn't work out for Mr tiensvold and my mom and they split and she married this ass hole and had my youngest brother Kris with him. He was always close to kris and with no experiance being a "grown up" much less a "parent" I guess he did alright while he was "happy". But ... sadley... he has emotional issues and a drinking problem and an anger problem and he has stopped thinking about his family and got lost in his own self loathing. so so sad. Kris is a strong kid though. He has deal with all very well. I'm very proud of him and my sister for being strong and keep their hopes up. Life isn't so bad without a dad. and my mom... despite all the drama he has caused her and all the stress that comes with the bills that asshole is no longer paying and all her own emotion issues and anxieties... she still puts her family first... tonight proves it... she drove all the way out here from Alvarado, picked me up and took me all the way back to mansfield hospital, and drove all the way back to take me home. ... then of course... all the way back to alvarado. must have took up all the gas left in that monster suburban she drives. I felt bad. So I gave her a coke. It was all I had other than a hug to offer as thanks. Gah... anyway... that was my night. Got some antibiotics... doc sais i've had a sinus infection. Wich i sorta already knew... but... water wasn't making it go away.

I should be feeling much better soon. I'm glad.