I love you girl.
Your words make me think, cry, and sometimes laugh.

Don't let the world get to you eventually you will get to the world.

Thanks girl. Appreciate that. I have'nt been writing alot. Been busy with real life transitioning. I like how you worded that though. I'll post some more stuff soon. Thanks for having my back. I've been feelin the weather alot. Cold and numbish inside. And the christmas cheer is putting me over the top hardcore.Glad i can call you a friend. Don't have too many of those these days.
grin.
But that could very well be my fault.
I love you too. Keep your spine straight and a smile on that pretty face of yours.
Later girlette.

I have been feeling that numbish feeling too.  I have only talked to John once since he's been gone to boot camp (and it's not his fault all the guys there have only gotten 1 call), and you know who and I have been talking for the past few days......  It happens this time of year.  I don't know how to take that boy.  We can be friends but he doesn't want to hang around John.....  

BOYS are so fucking stupid.

Ok so you know who and I have been talking for like the last week.  Like just as friends, but he has said stuff that has taken me back.  Like i love you, i miss you, or i don't wanna hang out with you AND your boyfriend because that would hurt to much, oh and i haven't been happy in a relationship since you.  Shit like that.  But I've told him I'm sorry but I'm happy and he will eventually find it too.  Ok so last night I called him and he called me back then my phone died and I called back and he hung up on me.........We had been txting all day and everything was fine........Oh and when started talking he said no he didn't have a girlfriend that it was just him and his daughter..........Ok so this morning when I wake up I have a txt that says "Please stop Txt my boyfriend"...........Ok so I want to know what was the point about lying that he had a gf?  I mean it's cool that he does........ I WANT him to have a gf, but I don't want him to piss her off by talking to me.

BOYS are stupid. lol. Dosn't sound like he wants you just as a "friend"... I am sure there is an ulterior motive beyond his just wanting to talk and "hang out" with you. My advice... ignore him... make him really move on before talking to him again. And if he starts saying things like i love, i miss you, blah blah blah... go back to ignoring him...

Have a groovy week Raylee. Glad to see you here more often.  

yea boys are stupid, not men.........and he has more than proven himself to be a BOY.  yea i got that same feeling too........and he got to where he was making me feel like he thought i was given him the impression that i wanted something more, so i would reiterate that it's not gonna happen.............yea we aren't talking anymore, he says that i don't even think about how i effect him and that i rip his heart out even when it's not mine.............dude wtf............you only say stuff like that when you're hoping that the person you say it to will be like "i'm so sorry i don't want to do that, i love you" hah that's not gonna happen...........and then he told me that he doesn't know why he thought I would be a good friend............wtf.........are you kidding me........and then he said that was the reason our relationship didn't work out.........wtf does he feel the need to bring up our relationship if we are supposed to be just friends.........WTF

thanx brian, i love being here more!
btw you're not a stupid boy