a beautiful downhill slide.
one unlike any other my tired heart has felt.
ive never been more ready.
more ready to hit my ass at the bottom,
just to realise that is it yet another Top.
that is my key.
the one missing link i had yet to learn again and agian.
but i have learned.
the bottom doesnt really exist.
no more than the pain we claim to feel.
i have all i need.
not leaving the top this time.
i AM the top.
or that is to say, the top has become ME
<3

i like it... guess what?! i'm meeting a guy through marissa, evie's older sister, he's 40 though which is cool i don't mine.. time to give the nice guy a chance and he's a really nice guy very sweet a biker!! and you know i love this shit outta that.. it's cool..

i have an interview today at ross.. wish me luck!

i miss you like a whole bunch and i love you like a whole bunch!!!!

derrick's still not talking to me i asked erin to ask him why and he told her its none of her god damn business... owell... guess he's never going to talk to me again... erin said she's through with him but i don't know if she meant it... anyway...

i love you and i miss you

Way cool man.

... I like the words Special K.