i've had the first worst day of my life since evie and i broke up... and i got through it!! all on my own... i haven't had a bad day like that since evie and i were together... and i always needed her help through it.. but this time i did it on my own and i'm so happy now.. that i can do this on my own... get through the worst day i've had in a year and a half... if i can do that then i can make it on my own!! finally!! i don't need no one to help me through my problems.. i've been waiting for some kind of sign that could help me through all this and i finally got it... kinda sucks for my friend though that i couldn't come through for her when i was telling her my shit was better than that guys shit and the guy didn't even come through.. but it's all good.. i gave her my cash and she's getting hers.. nothing can get to me now though.. i can handle anything

shout out to my bros brian and kodi

and whats up junebug haven't heard from you in awhile.. sorry i was such a bitch bad place in my life all better now if you wanna holla back!

later

What's up wid it girl? It's all good. We all go through some shit. I got you. We cool like some peanut butter and jelly. Smuckers style. Fo so.  

cool beans... how you been girl?... i'm throwing this costume party in fort worth it's at benbrook lake starts on halloween at 9 pm you can come if you want to ... it's byob anything goes... don't forget to show up in costumre.. i'm going to try to be a fairy,...

oh i finally talked to evie and got everything out.. ended kinda badly but i don't give a fuck cause i hate that bitch now... totally over that hoe fo sho..

anyway here's my new numba txt me
8177790031

Hey. Pretty good, pretty good. Kinda ironic...bout the time that you try to do the heterosexual thing i've been doin the opposite. Been seeing a girl for the past four months now. Shit's crazy. Can't seem to come up with a verdict on this one. Besides bitches are nutjobs. lol.
It's challenging.i'm always asking for space. (nicely)
Anyhow, going to school finally. Cedar Valley community college. Looking into buying a new car. Had a FORD i got from my parents that turned out to be one big menstrual bleed after another.Now i got some basic credit and a co-sign so it's coming along well. Living at Donna's again(Licia's mom) for the time being. Gearing the move out date towards June 07. Be twenty one by then. Intrestingly enough, i'm awake more than i'm asleep now. Kicked any blues i seemed to have had. Working two server jobs. IHOP and this new resturant in Cedar Hill called Razzoo's Cajun Cafe. Working on getting a promo to Bartender. THINGS ARE OK. I'm arrested with the Autumn season right now. My mood is all French Vanilla coffee and my heart is your heart.  

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New subject. Halloween party,huh? I'll keep that in mind. I'm taking the weekend off of both of jobs. And thinking about going out to Freaker's Ball. Boo to the BYOB but i know that the drink could get expensive. Why the lake? Fairy idea could be cool. Hey write me back when you check this.  

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two jobs huh?? crazy... can't even get one.. had a few interviews none of them went well.. i gather all that wants to hire me now is food places.. mostly fast food places.. which really sucks cause i'm trying to get away from that ... places like that bring me down..  

a ford huh?? what happened to your suv?? or am i thinking of someone else??

didn't really pursue the opposite sex... it kinda pursued me... i had an off again on again boyfriend in the midst of the shit that went down between me and derrick.. btw he's no longer speaking to me which really sucks cause he was my football buddy and football season started a couple of weeks ago so i really miss him

and as i said before i finally got to talk to evie and that shit went down pretty bad my cuz even got involved threats were made and i basically told her to fuck off i didn't want to hear from her anymore so now i don't give two shits and a fuck about that psycho bitch... got my closure finally after all this time... i needed it...

i owe the school money so i'm trying to save up to go back next semester so i can finally get back to working on my assosiates and transfer to either twu or unt which ever i feel is best at the time.. either way i'm moving to denton to go to school and that's where brian lives now.. in denton.. he lives near unt.... doing pretty good with his new girl she's older than he is and it suits him well... he's really happy they just moved in together  and i'm happy for him but i miss him bunches... hope to see him real soon.. but i'm not really use to his girl so i don't know how i feel around her... she doesn't smoke or anything and she's really quiet and i feel uncomfortable around her... i haven't told brian any of this though i'm sure he'll read this and think something of it...

anywayz girl... i wanted to settle down and start a family with this guy... my on again off again boyfriend his name is steven... not very attractive... got bushy eyebrows and fucked up teeth.. but he can make me laugh and when we WERE together he treated me right.. but i read on his myspace that he got married... so that sucks... he hasn't been on since the end of august wrote him a letter telling him i wanted to start a family with him and shit.. DYING to know his response...

nothing really that new here.. just been chillaxin... dealing with some drama as usual... tends to find me... or maybe i seek it out i don't know.. either way it happens..

check ya later

Wow,wow,wow.
Intresting. sounds like you got alot going on then huh? Well, good luck with the job searching. I've been through quite alot of them and it's a pain in the ass going through the whole he how ya doin? good, you? great.this is my history. look it over and let me know if you think my forehead has capable written on it. Lol. Sucks. Capital S. Anyhow, nuff of that. The schools that you mentioned are both badass. I've toured both of them recently. I'm going to get a dorm/apartment close to campus at an university by June. Thinking about doing the Denton thing. My homegirl has a house that's she renting out there. Seems like a good opportunity. Sigh. how are classes? You passing everything?

" settle down and start a family   " eek.
Guess i'm still running with a lit candlestick up my ass away from that one.  There's plenty of time for that junk. Get your career where you want it to be.  Circumstance will show up. So the guy you wanted is married now? *eyebrows raise* Total your losses and move on. Who cares? there's lots of available men that want to be domesticated. You have options.
about Brian. the whole shebang looks good.  Autumn means optimism.
Oh yeah. had an Oldsmobile(Cutless Ciera with the bucket seats and a sound system that had Pink ON 90% of the time),and then a borrowed Nissan manual pick up in green that Kody now O.w.n.s,then a Ford Taures in three toned "white"(think cop car), and now a borrowed black Chevrolet manual pick up truck.
MMMMM. don't know too many brands that are left. lol.But, no SUV. my dream car of the moment is actually a Nissan Xterra but they're super bad on gas milage. So big red x's for practicality.
well,...i'm bout to eat some mac n cheese. Lookin good.Lata!  

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Yo,yo,yo i'm drunk motha fuckas! lol. oh yeah. Drinkin by myself. Goin out of my everlovin mind. Time for new poetry! Hooray. grin.
Now's not the time for me to be typing. I do know that much.so blah,blah,blah.
And goodnight. Peace.

I meant 'junk' in my second to last post to be all nice and SPLENDA dipped for you. I'm a different sort of spirit when it comes to those 'luxuries of life' .smile, But we can be different.

i'm not actually in school right now... i had a grant last year and dropped my classes for evie cause she was complaining that i wasnt spending enough time at home with her so now i owe the school itself money cause they paid off my grant... so i have to wait and get up some money to pay them back so i can go back to school... but i don't really know what's going on now cause my mom wants me to get a job and suggested that i move to plano with my cousin so that i can find a job out there since it's so hard for me to find a job out here... don't know what i'm going to do.. can't leave my dog behind and want to go back to school here and there's my medical insurance that's only good in tarrant county cause it's county hospital insurance... so it really sounds like moving to plano is a bad idea but i don't know it's just and idea.. i'm going to call my aunt and talk to her about it when she gets back from india trippy huh they like to travel but this time they went cause her job required it she didn't really want to go... owell

ttyl

Yeah it's never a good idea to compromise your goals for somebody else. But it happens. Oh well, learn some shit and move on. Intresting trade up on the plano possibility.  I'm bout to go visit my homegirl, so i suppose i'll tak to you later then. Keep above water. Sounds like your life's goin in the right directions.    

you think so?? cause i can't seem to figure out what i'm going to do next man... i'm like at a fork in the road and don't know which way to go... i mean i can stay here and keep looking for a job and just hope and pray that i find one or i can move to plano and actually have a better chance of finding a job cause they have a bus line and is so close to the city... or i can stay here and go back to school plus my medical insurance is only good in tarrant county so i don't know what to do... i mean there's this program at the county hospital in dallas and they said they had all kinds of doctors but i don't know how much all of that will cost cause as it stands my insurance right now it only costs $20 to see my psychiatrist and i'm on like five different medications and all together it costs like $70 go anywhere else for that shit and it would cost like thousands of dollars i know cause my dad actually tried taking them to a regular pharmacy and that's what they quoted him on it fucking nuts so i had to wait to take it to my normal jps pharmacy... man i don't know what to do.. some insight would be nice right about now