I'm going to do what I enjoy for a living. However I have high hopes for my projects, my art, and my creative perspective / ideas... and I believe that one day everything will pay off. And I'll be living comfortably doing what I enjoy, creating things. I will no longer work under 20 diffrent managers and I will no longer be a slave to a cult or union. Put bluntly... fuck that.

I had a lil conversation with my blood father just a few minutes ago. He thinks I should move to Utah and work on a freight dock. Job starts a 17 bucks an hour! Woo! Kick ass! Let me just pack my shit up right now and start walking. Because I have no life here... I have been doing nothing since I left Utah the last time. Since I gave up the opportunity to have my college education paid for over a hair cut. That's right. I left because he wanted me to change. He wanted me to be some one eles... some one worthy of being a Brindley. And even just now... when I told him about my living situation and that I only make 8 bucks an hour, he said, "My god that isn't right. Brindleys don't live like that." lol. I'm not a Brindley. It's just a name. I am living like this because I have made choices that put me here. And even though I am looking for new job opportunities and ways to pay the bills while having some leftover change for a few fun things... I will not change who I am for money. I will only ever change who I am for myself as I discover more about myself and grow.

I am growing... and changing... and becoming... right now. On my own.

And I guess since the man who was suppose to be a dad to me can't co-sign or just send a lil x-mas cash my way to help me... I'll have to find a way to manage on my own. I'd rather really. I've too much pride. And I don't want to feel like I owe him anything anyway.

I know a few people who believe in imperfect. The idea behind this place is going to spawn into a bigger thing one day. It's about vision... a diffrent perspective on life and art in life.

We are all imperfectly beautiful in our own uniqe ways... any one who believes this as it is presented to them will see what I see here. That it is ok to be yourself. And that we should all except others for who they are and love one an other. And that perspectives can be / should be shared and all it takes to create art is vision. Not the vision that our eyes use to see... but the vision that comes from the soul. The thing that connects us all... the energy we use to feel.

Life is not about making a bunch of money and buying matieralistic s h i t.

Life is about experience... taking, giving, and sharing invisible energy.

 

Bravo!  Good for you for standing up for your principles.  As we were discussing last weekend, it's never worth it to change who you are for someone else... because it never feels right, never feels TRUE. (Yes, I'm speaking from personal experience, for other folks who don't know me.)

And I believe in Imperfect, and (I'll say it again) I believe in you.